Saturday, February 28, 2009 at 6:14 PM Y
-happy but sad-ü
.,hey nate!!., its been a while huh., hehe., im really really confused right now., i don't know what to do., i think what i felt for the other guy was just infatuation., az in., well, now i know that he really doesnt like me., haha., he likes the girl that hush likes too., but that was just nothing to me., i also think that the girl likes him too because they are always together., but i dont really care that much about them., although it did hurt a little.,
.,nate!!!,., i think my feelings fr hush are now coming back., huhu., ai, by the way, our js prom is already finished., im gonna tell you next time what happened., anyway, even though we were not really together that night, it was ok., cause i really know that it was not in his plan being with me that night., i even, personally, took the picture when he was dancing with the girl., huhu., it hurts a little., you know., huhu.,
.,i really think i like him again., huhu., im always thinking of him now., and i cried again because of him., and it really hurts., huhu.., listening to my classmates and friends teasing him to another girl, it hurts., my friend even told him to court the other girl already., huhu., but i prentended i didnt lilsten.,
ei nate!!!!., omg!!., mark the calendar., february 28., the very first time hush and i were holding hands!!!., az in., that time, i fellt weird., i really cant explain the feeling., but its a nice feeling., and i could hardly breathe., waaaahhhh!!!., we didnt have classes that time., he was lying on the floor watching tv., and i went near him., after a while., he stood up and laid his head on my lap!!!!., omg!!!!., i was really shock and kilig!!!,. haha., while he was lying, i was always touching his hair, well i love touching hairs., hehe., and while i was touching his hair, he took mu hand., waaahhh., my gosh!!., and with that, i intertwined my hand with his., and it felt really good., after a while, i also lay down beside him., i borowed one shirt from him and i covered it with my face and hands., the, i dont know what happened, we were holding hands again., waahahhh!!., but then i thought that it was bad., thinking that he doesnt like me, what we were doing was wrong., and i really wanted to cry that time., so i asked him if it was alright for him to do that, he didnt answer, i was hurt... again., but after a while, he held my hand closer and acted like he didnt want to let go., so i eally was very happy., but at the same time hurt., because after that, it was like nothing happe., huhuhu., i was expecting too much., i was really hurt., very much after that., i tried not talking to him the next day, but i just cant do it., huhu., so now, my plan is to not talk t him that much to., act like nothing happened., huhu., i think i., well, i think im not that inlove with him right now.,
xoxo,
hush_m26